Last night I was thinking, I haven't cried yet. I mean, when I went to church camp with Kelly last August I cried on the first night that I missed my baby boy. However, I've been here 5 days now and I haven't cried yet. It's not like I want to cry, it's not like that, I just think it's weird...

Anyways, I went to bed around 11:30/midnight and I had set my alarm for 9, 10, and 11am to get up. I had planned on doing laundry mostly, and organizing my room; I got up at noon. So instead I did the dishes from dinner last night and cleaned the kitchen. I mean, that's not a bad thing at all! Don't get me wrong! I still plan on doing my laundry, but I need to ask Kyna about the clothes sitting in the washer, so I might as well wait for her to get home, which isn't long since she gets off work in less than 10 minutes; it wont take her long to get home either since we live rather close to the commissary.

I ended up sleeping almost 12 hours last night, and I felt it when I woke up. I had the world's worst headache... it still hurts a little. But what really bothered me when I woke up was when I cam downstairs and saw that the damn dog got into the bathroom trash! There were half eaten pads strewn across the living room floor! I was like, WTFT??? So I cleaned that mess up and went in the laundry room (cause the light was left on) and found that the dog also pooped on the floor!! I was like WTFT TINK!!!!!!!! *sigh* oh well, I yelled at her and she was staying away from me for a while; she's all good now, sleeping next to me.

*sigh* I feel sick... My stomach feels wonky and my head is pounding... I really don't want to get sick... Kyna's been sick all weekend and it's just now starting to break up in her chest. Oh well, if it happens it means it was meant to happen, so I can't really complain much.

I do find it interesting that I ended up coming here. I feel so comfortable and content here. It is my goal, that by the time next semester starts, that I am a more honest person with myself and others, and I think being here will help me with that. I think that here I can get something of a structured life like I've always been lacking and wanting.

Anywho, I'm gonna make me something to eat for lunch and wait for Kyna to come home; she should be on her way home now.

Peace and well wishes
~Ashley